What are the dirtiest secrets that you haven’t told anybody?

Mudassir Ali
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Mudassir Ali
- Mar 02, 2020 02:51 PM

This is my first answer on quora so bare with me.

Let me introduce myself- I am an 18 y/o Indian girl currently in kota preparing for NEET’18.

Like any other student I too had come over here with high hopes and determination to focus only on my studies but like any other student in kota I got distracted too. Here are the list of tings I ain’t proud of and only few people know about it:

Take 1- Made a boyfriend in July. He used to stay just in my neighbouring hostel. Like an idiot fell for his sugar coated words and thought that he genuinely liked me. After 1 month got to know that all he wanted was sex. Meanwhile my parents had also started doubting that I’ve made a bf so anyways broke up with him.
Take 2- Became really good friends with a guy at my tuition. Did not have any feelings for him. Platonic friendship. But that was one sided I guess. One day he called me up and asked for some notes. Told me he has been really sick and could not attend the classes so wanted to see my notes. I was cool with it. Felt a bit weird that why call me when he could have called any other guy but then I did not dwell much on it and went to give him the notes. Now here’s the catch. He told me we’ll meet somewhere near his hostel cause he was ill and couldn’t travel much but when I reached at that said place he told me that his hostel is like just two blocks away and he can’t come down so he asked me to come upstairs. Hesitating a bit I went along. When I reached his room he did not seem that ill to me and now I had started doubting his behaviour cause he was sitting too close to my liking. And that’s when he showed his true colours. He started touching my thighs my cheeks and tried to kiss me and when I pushed him, he pinned me down on bed and started forcing himself on me. I was crying and begging him to let me go cause there was no way way I could have pushed him off me. He was huge. He was pressing my boobs. Fumbling with the button of my jeans but like a true bollywood movie my best friends boyfriend came over and on hearing his knock this guy panicked and that was my cue to kick him and slide out from underneath him. I managed to open the door and run from there. (I know it sounds cliche but well thats my life.)

That incident made me numb. Nor did i cry after reaching hostel nor did I react to anybodies word. After a week I finally broke down. I cried for solid 4 hours and then felt light. Complained about that guy in my tuition. Got him suspended and felt better. Had thought that now no more guy problems in kota but guess what? Take 3.

Take 3 – 5th September, 2017

My friends and I where prank calling few people out of fun and flirting with them. One amongst them was a guy(lets call him X) living in my neighbouring hostel whose room could be seen through my rooms window. Soon after this prank call X started calling daily and we used to talk every day for 5 to 6 hours.

2nd October, 2017

I had moved out from my hostel and shifted into a PG. The PG had three rooms. One was mine. One was of my best friend’s and the other one belonged to a different guy who was hardly ever seen out of his room. On the same night X proposed me and I accepted it. We gradually started meeting and hanging out. One day day we had decided to Netflix and chill at my place. Now all of you might have guessed that what happened next. Yes we did get horny and we did have sex. That was my first time. It felt good. Like tooo good. And because of this he started coming 3-4 times a week. On weekdays he would stay over at my place and we would watch movies, cuddle, have sex and so on. It was like a fairytale. And the best part of it all was that my marks weren’t getting affected too. So it was a win win situation.

Things started to change when his elder brother got to know about it. Like in a bam he was a different person. It all ended in a blink of an eye. We where together for six months and even that wasn’t enough for him to fight for me. We broke up yesterday and now I feel used.
Guilty for not focusing much on studies. Guilty for breaking my parents trust who would never have thought in a million years that I could do this. Guilty for trusting someone who ran away at the very first sight of a problem. He did not even have the courage to hold on and fight for a little longer.
It’s like in kota, 80% crowd is only interested in screwing. Nothing else. Its a harsh truth which I learned the hard way.

Now many people will say that its normal. I know its normal but not for me. It was disheartening and the most sad part is that I can’t share this with anyone. Because I feel ashamed to be judged that how could I lose my virginity so easily. Anyways now it feels good to get it off my chest.

I hope in future I’ll be able to confide in someone and not be judged.

Edit: I feel used because his behaviour proves that he was with me only for sex. If he genuinely liked me wouldn’t he have the decency to atleast give me a valid reason for breakup and not just disappear on me. It hurts to realise that the person you love doesn’t give a fuck about you.

Mudassir Ali
- Mar 02, 2020 02:51 PM

My first teacher when I was 4 years old taught me how to masturbate. I realized it in my high school.
Since my parents were working, one of my family friend used to come and rape me when I was 4/5 years old.
I became addicted to masturbate without realising it’s adverse effect, eventually leading me to erectile dysfunction.
I became a sex addict that I used to imagine sex at the age of 10.
I am bisexual .
I used to peep others changing clothes and bathing.
I realized my mistake when I grew older and became aware of myself. I tried to reform my self. My girlfriend helped me to reform. Yes I told her my story.
I don’t smoke, drink , neither had sex with anyone.
Though sexual desires urges but I controlled my self.
My girlfriend left me to marry someone else, still I love her to gift me this new life.
I cry alone and feel very lonely in my life. I am 30 now, but didn’t marry. May not marry in future.

Mudassir Ali
- Mar 02, 2020 02:51 PM

I am a 19 years old girl from Nepal. I belongs to a middle class family. My father is a Manager in one of a Bpo in Mumbai. We shifted to Pune when I was in 6th standard. My father stays in Mumbai and visit pune every weekend.

This is a story when I was in standard 6th. We rented a flat nearby my school. My parents wanted me to join a tution as the syllabus was new for me. There was a Sir opposite to our building. He convinced my parents about my studies. I joined the tution and started going daily at his Flat. There were 10-12 students in my tution. But one day he asked my mother to send me for a extra class in the morning. I took a bath and went at 8 AM. He started teaching me geography. While teaching he started telling me how cute I was. He said he likes my nose and eyes. He said we Nepali girls are really beautiful. I was very innocent at that time so I just smiled and continued studying. He called me next the at the same time. He was married and his wife was a school teacher. She used to leave at 7:30. I went in the morning and he was waiting for me. While teaching he said he is feeling bore so let’s watch TV. As soon as he switched on the TV. I saw a man bringing a rose and gave to a girl. They were dancing and suddenly they started kissing. I thought it must be a movie. But scene got worse when they both started removing their clothes and man was sleeping on a girl naked and the girl was screaming. It was a porn film. I was shocked. I looked at him. He was busy watching. I tried to ignore. I was very young to understand that. But I saw many scenes were the man was inserting his organ in her pussy. My Sir came and sat next to me. He looked at me and Asked me are you understanding anything. I didn’t say anything. He switched off the TV and Pulled me on his lap. I was so Shy. He said its the part of Girls life. He started telling me how he does this to his wife. I was listening to him as I don’t have any option. I told him I wanna go home. He said let’s both go at your home and I’ll tell ur mummy that I watched this flim with me. I was shocked. I was about to cry. I thought if my mummy came to know she will beat me very badly. I told him u forced me to watch. He said he won’t tell my mother and started to laugh. He brought a bottle of water and asked me to Finish it. While Writing I somehow finished a bottle of water. I wanted to pee. I told him I wanna use the bathroom. He followed me. But as soon as I was about to enter. He Picked me up And threw me on his bed. He removed my pant and panties. I tried to push him. But he was very strong. He removed all my clothes. He started to kiss me. He spread my legs and started to kiss my pussy. I wanted to pee badly. He spread my legs wide apart. He started to lick it and put his tongue in my hole. Because of wetness of his mouth I was not able to hold it anymore. I told him ‘Mujhe susu aai hai’ but he kept licking it. At last I was not able to hold it. I started to pee on his face. But instead of moving his face he started to suck it. He drank all my pee. I was really shy at that time. I was simply sleeping naked in front of my sir. Suddenly I started to cry. I felt bad that I was not able to control my pee. He came close and hugged me. He said ‘ kya hua mere baby ko, its okay, me Kisi ko nai bataunga, kal time pe aa jana.’ He gave my clothes and I went home. I was really scared. Next day I told my mom that I don’t wanna go to tution I’ll study on my own. But she scolded me and asked me to go. Next day again he gave a naughty smile. I know I don’t have any option. He again took me to his bedroom. He said he haven’t seen a beautiful girl like me in his entire life. He came closer and started to suck my lips. He showed me his Penis. It was thick as hell. He removed my clothes. asked me to sleep on my stomach. He buried his face in my ass and slept smelling my holes. He said ‘ Itni si hai tumhari choot but iski smell mujhe sone nai deti.’ He licked my butthole for half an hour. He asked me sleep on one side. I was sleeping naked showing my ass to him He put his Penis between my thighs and started to rub. I saw him Cumming. He was moaning. A white water like thing coming out of his Penis. He used to cum on my stomach, sometimes on my butts.

Every Day I was asked to drink a bottle of water. And whenever I used to ask him for bathroom, he used to pull my pants down and ask me to sit on his face. He used to suck my pussy till I pee. Daily he used to drink pee from my pussy. Daily I saw him Cumming. Somedays he used to finger my butthole which was Really painful. He used to ask ‘Dard ho raha hai mere baby ko’ if I say yes he used to stop. He caressed me like a small baby. I used to sleep naked on him. He used to rub my back.

One fine day he told my mother that he is shifting to some another city. And last time he wanted to revise my studies. I went. But that day he was acting like a gentlemen. He came close to me and hugged me tightly. He started crying. I felt really bad. I hugged him back. i tried to wipe his tears. He started to cry more and more. He said how innocent I am, inspite of troubling so much I am wiping his tears. He grabbed me like a baby and slept on his sofa saying Sorry Hundred times. He said I have a gift for You. He gifted me a brand new cycle of 15000. He kissed on my forehead and I left. I know I won’t see him from tomorrow.

He thanked my mother. And wished me best of luck for my Studies. I saw him last time waving his hands from his car. I felt like crying. I don’t know why but that day I cried for whole night. I was emotionally attached to him. Days passed by. We moved to our own flat. I forgot about what he did to me. But I like him as a person. He was gently with me. He regretted what he did. He apologized at the end. I think that was a happy ending.

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